I continue to wonder.

...and as I began to drift out to sea, I wonder what it would be like.
What it would be like to just, go under.
Then I do it.
I am peaceful.
Without a care in the world.
I. Am. Happy.

But then I can't hold my breath any longer,
But I can't bring myself to stay under.
So I come back up.
Then I am no longer peaceful.
I am no longer careless of the world.
I. Am. Unhappy.


Reality, it's not all its cracked up to be.