Once Upon a time you were
Left crying in the rain and hurt
You said, you'd never love again
He came along and broke your heart
Now it's been crushed and needs new parts you feel
Like it will never heal
You tell me you've been feeling like giving up on dreaming
Cause love will only let you down
You say that you've be thinking that your prince will never come around
Friday, July 30, 2010
Sometimes Fairy Tales Do Come True
I'm such a horrible person
This makes me want to change even more, to prove myself wrong.
I guess that blog has filled its purpose, so drive me to change.
Every time I'll go back and read it, it will give me another little push to drive me to change.
Mission Complete
Everything In it's right place.
In the company of good friends,
In the happiness you get when you make someone else's dream come true,
or In the promise of hope renewed.
It's okay to let yourself be happy,
Because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.
Realisation.
Day 30.
Finally!
So I have finally reached the last day, this one may be hard.
Dear Self.
There was a time when I thought you were beautiful, but recently I just don't see it anymore, you try but often just fail.
You have definitely put on weight lately and it does not look good.
You really need a new hair style of some sort.
And a new sense of fashion.
You should definitely work on these things if you wish to be successful in life.
Good luck Minga.
Megan
xox
Day 29.
Dear Mum,
There are so many things that we should talk about, as mother and daughter. Boys, Drinking, Parties etc.
But I'm just too afraid, I'm scared it will just be really awkward.
Hopefully we will one day get to the point where we can have these conversations.
In the mean time i will just read magazines for advice.
love you,
Megan
xox
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Day 28.
Dear Des,
When you were alive I did not realise the change you made in my life, but now that your gone I see, not only the impact you made on me, but the impact you made on so many people.
I feel that with you gone people have changed their lives to live just a little bit more like you did.
You definetly were the greatest man I knew, and I wish you hadn't of left.
I miss you so much.
Sometimes I just wait for you to come back, but I realise that you never will.
I love you.
Megan
xoxoxoxoxo
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
where are you now?

Is like faking a smile when you've given up
It only reminds you what you're dreaming of
And he's not here
Writing a love song for no one to hear
Is like wishing on stars that never appear
So don't be surprised when your eyes start to tear
Cause he's not here.
Where are you now
Do you need to be found
Are you lost in the crowd and I'm passing you
Am I moving too fast for you
Cause I'll slow down
So where are you now?
Writing a love song when you're not in love
Can tear at your heart if you're not strong enough
It makes you aware that alone can be tough
When he's not here
Searching for something that you cant search for
He only appears when he's been ignored
So stop all your searching he'll knock on your door
But he's not here
Where are you now
Do you need to be found
Are you lost in the crowd and I'm passing you
Am I moving too fast for you
Cause I'll slow down
So where are you now?
I'm screaming out loud
Hopelessly thinking you'll hear me
And come running to me but you're not around
So where are you now?
Where are you now
Do you need to be found
Are you lost in the crowd and I'm passing you
Am I moving too fast for you
Cause I'll slow down
So where are you now?
I'm screaming out loud
Hopelessly thinking you'll hear me
And come running to me but you're not around
So where are you now?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USUfXUCDGk0&feature=sub&videos=JabMXvQt1do
Day 27.
First this would have been Matt Broadbent, but then I saw him again and got his msn etc.
Next this would have been Jess Morris A.K.A. Jesus. But then she is on my facebook and I have seen her again.
You are both amazing people.
Jess -- you're hilarious.
Matt -- you're indescribable.
Love you
xox
Monday, July 26, 2010
Day 26.
I don't remember who you are.
If you wish for me to keep this promise I suggest you show yourself and I'll do my best.
:),
Megan.
Day 25.
I know that recently a lot of people have been having troublesome times, I am one also.
So I will not write a letter to anyone, I will just speak to everyone.
Dealing with death and grief can be a strenuous time, but opening up to people, and spending time with friends is the best thing you can do.
Day 24.
This letter is directed towards many people.
Dear Jennie, Charlotte, Tiana, Tayla, Matt, Charley, Declan, Liz, Meg, Aimee, Cookie, Bubbles, Jake, Doug, Ryan, Joe, Ant-Man, David, Chelsea, Lillian, Molly, Morgan, Des.
I'm really thanking you, from the bottom of my heart for making my school years bearable.
I have no Idea what i would have done without yous, I would of probably ended up in a gutter being a failure.
I'm very greatful for everything you sub-consciously do for me.
Thank-you,
Megan
2012.

Sunday, July 25, 2010
This is a story of boy meets girl. But you should know up front, this is not a love story

doesn't sound as good with the change of sex
I hate his crooked teeth. I hate his 1960s haircut. I hate hhis knobby knees. I hate his cockroach-shaped splotch on his neck. I hate the way he smacks his lips before he talks. I hate the way he sounds when he laughs.
I HATE THIS SONG!
you mess with me.

Inception
Friday, July 23, 2010
written in the middle of the night - makes no sense.


Just because I can.
It's always been you.
I know your heartbeat well enough to know that's you outside my door,
standing still, head in your hands, holding back the rain
Im stuck, still, frozen wanting to get up and let you in
To kiss you, to feel the.... that only you can give me
But now in this room things seem different,
its quieter, the air is warm,
almost as if i lost never lost to you eyes...
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Day 22.
I don't think I really need to give anyone a second chance.
Sorry.
Day 21.
Dear the Mingas of Balmoral.
I'm sure you are lovely girls..... but man, you have made very bad impressions on just about everyone.
If you want to get anywhere in life, other than the corner, you need to change your ways.
From Megan.
Day 20.
Unfortunately I have not yet have the privilege of someone breaking my heart.
You may be wondering why I seem to be making out heart break to be a positive thing.
Well, for a heart to be broken, a pretty special thing would have had to have come before the tragedy.
I want that special thing, and I wouldn't mind a heart break. To test drive the old ticker for future.
I just want something. Someone.
I just need someone.
I would feel so much happier.
Sometimes I wake up in the morning smiling, because I had a romantic dream, and it just seems so real, but one I wake up I realise it's not real, then my smile turns into a frown.
That's possibly the closest I have come to heart break.
I just want that dream to become a reality.
My friends tell me I'm pretty and stuff, But how come the entire male population can't seem to see that.
Day 19.
I have an issue with that boy pestering my mind.
Dear Boy,
You change a lot, You usually stick around for at least three months.
At the moment you have been around for about 4.
I sometimes have little infatuations with others but I seem to always come back to my default few.
I will always have feelings for my current you. but at the moment I have a slight other you.
But I'm getting to know one of you, and the other i already know really well.
My current you I have had feelings for in the past, we have the same interests, we get along really well, and I always feel happy when I'm around you.
You may not be as good looking as my other default you, or maybe even my slight current you, but you sure make up for it in other aspects.
Your basically a best friend, but in an entirely different way.
Sometimes I think I imagine you have feelings for me also, but then I snap back to reality and realise your probably don't.
Well I just hope that one day one of you will come around.
Love Megan
xox
The way to measure a man.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Day 18.
Dear Self,
I wish you could be more smarter
I wish you could be skinnier
I wish you could be funnier
I wish you could be more popular
I wish you could be more nicer
I wish you could be more loved
I wish you could be more persistant
I wish you could be more determined
I wish you could be more committed
I wish you could be this person, because you would be more happy with your life
Your would have a more successful furture
You would most likely currently not be single.
You should be this person!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Don't give me the chance to contemplate.
I came home this arvo and it felt strange. It still feels strange. As if I'm not wanted or something.
My parent aren't really talking to me. Didn't ask me how my night was, how my day was.
Nothing.
So now I'm in my room - alone - because I feel like if I go downstairs I'll be an unwanted presence.
In past blogs I have said that when I'm alone I think off Des.
I thought that had all passed, but tonight I realised it's how I feel that makes me think of him.
I feel alone and unwanted, which is making me miss him.
When I feel peaceful or easy I don't cry.
Basically, I'm doing the same thing I usually wood, but it has an entirely different feeling.
Day 17.
As I am still a child, I will look far back to write this letter.
Dear yr 3/4/5 friends,
Amy, Georgia, Rosie, Nina, Amanda, Shaleshni, Jacob, Leo, Codie, Jayden, Lawrence.
You were all really cool.
I know that I still know most of you, but we have all changed so much since the days when we were youngens.
I miss those times. We were all so carefree.
No Homework, Not worrying much about boys/girls, we didn't fight.
We just were.
Oh well, everyone has to grow up.
Change is inevitable. And that's just life.
Now that we have all gone our separate ways, we sometimes bump into each other, and reminisce about the old days.
Cannon Hill :)
Love you all
Day 16.
I don't seem to have this issue.
I don't really know anyone not in my state nor country.
Oh well....
Friday, July 16, 2010
Day 15.
Dear Matthew James Broadbent.
I know that I have written many letters to you, but that because I know you love them.
So I will tell you the things I love about you in this letter :)
I love: -
- your humor
- that your cute
- that your caring
- that your sweet
- that your my best friend
- that you make me happy
- that you talk to me even when your in the middle of assignments due in less than 12 hours
- that you call me on your midnight runs
- that you have a deep voice
- that your over 6 ft
That's really all I can think of now.
I miss you.
Love From Megan
xox
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Day 14.
So, as you may know, I changed social groups a couple of times before I found my current permanent place.
Thus meaning, I drifted away from friends.
As I wrote my non speaking letter to Nicola - who moved away - I will write this one to Edie.
Dear Edie,
We were really great friends, and there was a time - at the beginning of year 9 - where we really only had each other, that doesn't seem so long ago, but it also feels like I haven't been friends with you for a veeery long time.
Recently I have been speaking with you a lot more, reminiscing. We sometimes bring up old inside jokes, and this makes me really happy.
I can sometimes miss you, but there are things you have got caught up in that make me glad I'm not close with you anymore.
I miss the days we used to have, for a lot of it, it was just me and you.
You were a really good friend to me, and I'm glad that through me finding new friends there was no conflict.
I think we have changed for the better, there are some things you do that I don't agree with, but that's your choice, and I'd support you.
I love you,
Megan
xox
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Day 13.
As far as I know I have not done anything wrong by someone, I don't believe anyone is angry at me or I need forgiving.
But If in fact I am mistaken, please correct me asap.
I would be delighted to patch things up
:)
Day 12.
There is no-one that I hate a lot, I have no enemies.
I have never had the experience of people causing my a lot of pain.
Yes, people have left, or I have left people, but nothing that hasn't formed me to be the person I am today. nothing that I regret, or wish didn't happen. nothing that I dwell upon.
Dear Matthew James Broadbent.
I'm writing this letter to you to inform you that I have been hurt by you.
You have caused me pain.
I miss you.
Love Megan
xox
Day 11.
now I have tried to put this one off as long as possible so it's a bit late... I have decided that I have previously completed this letter so I shall not repeat myself.
Dear Des,
I miss you insanely.
Please come back some how.
Love from Megan
xox
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Day 10.
Dear Nicola Jane Amanda Murphy,
We used to be best friends, and now these days I feel like I don't know you anymore.
I haven't seen you in ages.
I hardly do anymore.
It's a real shame, but I guess that's the way life goes.
I'm going to try and come and visit soon, very soon.
I miss you
Love Megan.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Day 9.
Dear Dream Guy.
I would really like to meet you.
I don't know who you are, but I know everything about you.
You're 6" or above (or you will be)
You have brown/black hair
You're extremely active (either playing soccer, rugby, or afl)
You're very funny
You're handsome
You're Intulectual
You're Friendly
You're Sweet
You're Caring
You're Perfect
You're Somewhat Muscular
You're Romantic
It would be more enjoyable if you had an accent :)
- English, Irish, French, Italian, Greek, Canadian or American.
You will read books and be great with kids.
I'm very eager to meet you.
I'm not sure if I may already know you hoewever, I may have just not yet been exposed to these sides of you. I'm looking forward to finding out.
Love from Megan
xoxoxo
P.S.
- Chad Micahel Murray, Don't be affraid to respond to this letter.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Day 8.
I wonder who this could be.
Yup you guessed it. This letter is mailed to Matthew James Broadbent.
Dear Matt.
Your basically the love of my life..... :
No, but seriously.
I do really miss you. I have only ever seen you like twice, but your basically one of my best friends.
I can tell you just about everything.
Though sometimes I feel really bad, and to blame for your illness.
For your terrible case of separation anxiety.
I guess I am partially to blame; simply for being so damn lovable.
I'm sorry.
I really do miss you, I can't wait to see you........ and your abs (flex)
-_-
I know this letter probably wasn't as in depth as I, or you, would have hoped, but I'm sure there will be many more letters sent your way.
Love you,
From Megan.
xoxoxoxo
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
I didn't mean those things I said.
These feelings hardly last more than a mere few hours, they could be replaced by a similar feeling but usually I don't feel the same about a situation.
My blogs often involve people, and recently with the days; they are clearly directed at people. But, Internet Audience, you need to be aware, that the next time I may speak to these people, my feeling about them have changed.
Don't get me wrong, if I say I love you in a post (i.e. Dad, Mum, Brother, Best Friends) that's the feelings I mean and that never change easily. But if I say the things I may like, or dislike about you, That is easily changed.
I'm not sure if this is making sense, but basically, don't be offended by anything I may say, because it can often be how I am affected by something that changes my feelings.
Okay, basically to sum it up.
I often won't mean the things I say, a week, a day or even an hour later.
If I could blog on the same topic everyday, you would see the diversity in feelings.
Maybe, just maybe, I might do this whole letter thing again next month. To demonstrate what I am referring to. I also think it would be quite a productive little experiment to test myself.
Maybe
Megan.
Day 7.
Dear Ex-Boyfriend
Remind me who you were?
I have been single for a long time now, I have nothing to say to my ex, as I am unlikely to ever see them at the moment.
My social groups have completely changed, numerous times since you, so therefore you don't affect me in any way.
Hope your having a great life :)
Megan.
Day 6.
I'm directing this letter to a kid I don't know. He is known as BMT.
He comes to subway everyday and gets the same thing.
BMT
White Bread
Foot long
No Cheese
Toasted
Lettuce
Carrot
No sauce
No Salt & Pepper
3 White choc cookies
He pays with eftpos and covers his pin lots
Dear BMT
I don't know who you are, therefore you are a stranger to me.
I see you lots, but I rarely speak to you.
The last time I served you all I said was "Lettuce and Carrot?"
I sometimes feel bad
Next time I think ill make more conversation with you :)
Hope you enjoy the sub
Megan.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Day 5.
I'm unsure as to whether this is meant to be directed towards my ambitions, or sleeping dreams.... so I will write two letter directed at each.
Dear Ambitions,
I know what you are.
I know what I want to be.
I know what I will be.
I am going to be a Drama and Film teacher minoring in English.
I will also travel the world.
I would like to spend majority of my travels in England, America, and France (although I can't speak the language)
Even though I have never left the country, I still know that these are the places I will love.
I will also attend Cyprus and the Greek Island.
I'm meant to go there with my Bapou and find a husband. Not sure how successful I shall be, but I would love to go there with him before he leaves.
I'm going to have a very successful life. I'm going to have a long and happy marriage with a 6'3" tall brown haired man. We will have two, possibly three lovely children. I'm and not set on the names yet, but they may include - Emily, James, Jane, Chase (?), Charlotte. I am definitely stuck on Jane and James. I love those names :)
That is all for my future dreams. I hope I will Love you
Megan
xox
Dear Sleep Dreams,
I have not been having any lately.
This makes me angry.
I want to have dreams, I don't know where my nighttime imagination has gone.
Maybe I have just been so tired, I'm completely dead to the world.
Even to my brain.
Come to think of it, I don't remember having any dreams since the unspeakable event, and if I have had dreams, I'm pretty sure they have involved him.
:S
This is not good.
Please come back soon,
I miss you.
Love Megan
xox
I hope that was right...
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Day 4.
Dear Michael,
Okay, so, you are pretty cool.
I know we fight a lot and stuff, but I still like you.
I like it when your nice to me, and when we can have a civilised conversation.
We haven't been fighting as regularly lately which I like. I think it's because we have been getting older and most of our interests and stuff are the same, so we have more to talk about.
I Love you,
Megan.
Day 3.
Dear Mother.
You are wonderful.
I love that you are just such a normal mother, you love me, you love my friends, you love buy me things, you love driving me places.
It's great, Your great.
No, but seriously, you are a really brilliant mum, you care for me so much, you do anything to help me. I know we can sometimes have little arguments but they never last very long.
You have been so helpful to me lately with circumstances and I appreciate it.
Thank-you; for everything.
Dear Father.
okay so, you can often be really quite annoying... well more than often you are.
But I still love you, You can sometimes make me laugh.
And i know that deep, deep down you care for me, even though you never ever like to show it.
I know that you have a short temper and I guess that's what i have gotten from you, but I still enjoy your company.
I like to cook with you.
Complain about soccer with you.
Get up the Peanut Gallery with you.
Watch Soccer with you.
Be an Eagle with you
Your a good man
Thanks
That is all...
See you tomorrow :)
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Day 2
Now I will not post my crush on the internet for all to read. But I will mention some key point I like about him.
- He is really funny
- He is a good friend of mine
- He is careing
- He is sweet
- He has hypnotic eyes
- His artsy history
- He's smart
- He's sporty
- He makes me Happy
- He is somewhat perfect
Now as I cannot reveal his Identity, I will reveal the identity or my F-list Celebrity Crush
Andrew Redford
- He is quite brill looking
- He has an amazing voice
- He seems pretty cool
- He is stylish
- He plays guitar
That's really all I know about him; and that not only is he Australian, but he lives in Queensland - Sunny Coast :)
Day 1-ish
My Best Friend
So everyone knows that Jennie is basically my best friend, although I have more than one.
A few people have been topping my list lately, so I will write this letter to Charlotte Samantha Tucker.
Charlotte -
You are an extremely amazing girl. I admire everything about you. Your passion, your Creativity, your Independence, your Love, your Childness, your Maturity, your Innocence, your reliability.
Charlotte I know you can sometimes be underestimated but I see how amazing you are. I see your leadership potential.
I feel so comfortable around you, I love that you trust me with information. I love how just normal you are. I love how easily we can joke around. I love how i can wash your hands without it feeling awkward. I love how I can mother you and you can mother me.
I love hearing about your life, I find you so interesting, everything about your past, present and future.
I completely admire your relationship with Declan, I am often really jealous that you were able to find someone that makes you feel that way so easily.
I love how he makes you feel, and vise versa. You are both dear friends of mine and i love how you have each bettered each other.
I completely adore you. I want to be friends with you for a long time after school. I love out little social sub-group, it makes me happy.
I love you Charlotte, it's hard to describe how I feel about you, but I think I have done a pretty dece job :)
I love you.
Now I would not like certain people to go unmentioned.
- Jennie Ida Byrnes
- Tiana Jade Roulston
- Matthew James Broadbent
- Tayla Lea Ericksen
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Tomorrow.
Throughout the course of the challenge there may be some interruptions but i will complete each stage effectively.
The Letter Challenge
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
























