not looking good.

I'm beginning to not care again.

I have recently (the last few days) become very indecisive.

The last time I was like this was when I was very sad.

So I really don't want to become like that again.

I shouldn't feel this way again, nothing significant has happened that would trigger it.

But I guess I have recently become very confused with things.

I say "Oh well, we will just see what happens"... but this just makes me ponder.

And I often get lost in my own thoughts - although I'm not thinking of anything, I'm just staring, at nothing.

I'm scared.

I don't want to be like that again. I was just beginning to be happy again, all the time.

I have done really well in school this term - A- in Maths, Drama. A In English and FTV. B in Home ec. Which makes me feel really good.

But I don't feel as happy as I think I should.

Something is holding me back from being ecstatic.

I'm not going to become a Depressive Teenager. Not again.

I won't let myself be like that again.

I'm going to live my life.

Not 2nd Guess.

Take risks.

Be whoever the hell I want.

And Do what I please.

I will still retain my Mature nature, I will continue to be responsible. But I'm going to become more free.

I owe myself that don't I?

Lets hope things brighten up...