utter bliss.

I've become overwhelmed with a feeling of happiness, of bliss, of being.
Nothing significant has happened to make me feel this way.
I just do.
I just am.

I have recently decided to just stop worrying.
Worrying about boys, about my looks, about my weight.
I have decided to just live my life to the best of my ability.
Because the truth is that when you stop looking for something, it finds you.
I have witnessed this recently with a dear friend of mine.

She decided to not date until after school, she stopped worrying about boys. Then BAM she is now pretty much in a relationship.

I want that, but I'm not going to devote myself to getting it.

I went to a wedding yesterday and I think just spending that time with my family, with my loved ones. really made me appreciate them more. I do truly love them.


I don;t exactly know how to describe it, but i just have a feeling that everything is going to be okay.
I finished an assignment in about 2 hours which made me really pleased. I just have the feeling that everything is about to get a lot brighter. I'm going to enjoy my life, and dedicate (a portion of) myself to my studies.

I'm focusing on setting up my life, thinking of my future, my children, my husband. I want to be able to support them through anything, mentally and financially.

I have been heavily complimented this weekend, by close family, extended family and strangers.
Apparently Rockhampton, and I quote, "Loves Red Heads".


I feel happy with myself.
I have realised that things so be so much worse off.
I have a great life.
I'm not ugly, and it wouldn't matter anyway.
I'm totally accepting of myself, and I think that now it's time for me to become a better person.

I guess its the perfect time to use this saying.

- You cannot allow someone to love you;

without first loving yourself.

♥