better.

feeling better :)
I've decided to live my life and not care about little useless things.

Next time I'm feeling down i will look back on a quote like this and remember what is really important.

Day 15.

Your favourite blogs.


I don't really have favourite blogs, although I read all my friends posts religiously.
- Jennie
- Ant Man
- Tayla
- Charlotte
- Maddie
- Hannah
- Chelsea
- and of course Suitcase Rummage

That's about it :)

waves a crashin

One thing can kind of set of waves of emotions

I'm pretty down at the moment, because I have sort of stepped back and analysed my life. Why do I kind of get the "left-over love". It's like everyone is giving everyone else their love until their full, then I just get whatever's left.

I'm most likely over-reacting, because that's what I do. But I'm just sick of everything about my life at the moment. I'm sick of the same routines I fall into everyday. Why can't one day I ride a horse to school or something. Or what if I take completely different classes. Or what if I sit with different people. I guess people that I would feel appreciated around, and not singled out.

I'm pretty much the only single girl left in my group. and it sucks ass. I thought I was okay with it. But I'm really not. Because at lunch there always seems to be an odd number of people. I'm the odd.

Everyone just seems to have someone. Or someones. But I really just have no-one.

I feel like I will always be "the single one". But I'm also the advice giver. So it's extremely hard when people come to me for relationship advice, because I get angry when they complain about having someones love.

They don't really understand what that sort of stuff means to me. I don't have what they all have. and I fear I'll die alone.

I'm just sick and tired of caring and making decisions. I'm so over everything.

This is a terrible time for me to be this way, I have done hardly any school work this term, and if I don't start on assignments, I'll soon crumble under the stress. I just need an extreme pick-me-up. But I cannot see one coming anytime soon.

I'm sick and tired of this stress and disappointment.

FML

I'm tired of caring

about everything

just can't be bothered with life anymore

it's all to hard.

Day 14.

Earliest memory


Arrgh I'm really pissed of at the moment, so I hate the memory I have.

I don't have one specific memory, but many. And they all involve me faggot of a brother. I wish I could wipe my memory because it just reminds me of how he used to be; nice to me. Then he turned into a gay, teenager and hasn't yet snapped out of it.
I just wish we could get along. Sometimes I think we do, but then he will just fuck it up.
Arrgh. He annoys me. I just wish he wouldn't be so disrespectful and insensitive. And I wish he was actually able to hold up a conversation.

He makes me cry and it pisses me off!!!!

Arrgh, I hate him so much, but I hate hating him.
I wish we could just get along.
is that too much to ask.


And now as tear roll down my face, I'm questioning whether I want to get along with him whilst he's the person he is.

And because of him, I question everything else. My friendships with everyone else. I HATE THIS!

Day 13.

Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.



London

Cyprus

New York

Day 12.

Bullet your whole day.

Alrighty, I'll add more to this later as it happens.


- Woke up, (about 7-ish) and was really tired and could have slept for another 7 hours
- Had a shower
- Got dressed
- Then turned my laptop on - checked Facebook, played music etc.
- Did hair
- Did Make-up
- went downstairs (About 7:45-ish)
- Ate watermelon for breakfast
- Packed bag
- Brushed Teeth
- Left for school (About 8-ish)
- Got to school, chilled at H block till around 8:15 then purchased some milk and returned to H block
- Drank milk
- fought Lillian
- Went to HPE
- Went to E7 - Did HPE stuff
- Morning tea
- Went to tuckshop, bought food.
- Went to Behind J Block
- Ate Vego Lasagna
- Chilled during break etc.
- PCA
- Learnt about the Physics master and then read a few stories to my class
- English
- Mrs Richmond sent me on a wild goose chase to find some books she lost.
- First I had to go to C Block staff room, so I took advantage of my freedom.
- Before I went to C block, I ran into Joel and Dillon.
- Talked to Joel and Dillon for a bit
- Then Joel wrote "JOE KRAMER :)" on my arm
- I then wrote "Megan Thomas :)" on Dillon's arm
- And so we devised a new game which then travelled through year 12. (I am the only exception to the yr 12 rule because I was a co-Creator of the game)
- Went to C block - no books
- Returned to English
- Richmond sent me to G block in search of the books
- No books
- returned to English
- Richmond sent me to the Library
- No Books.
- Returned to English
- Re-arranged my Reese Webb Gallery whilst listening to music
- Then came assembly. Was average - Dominic Murphy won an award, but they didn't specify which one, so they both went up. Sadly one was disappointed. HILARIOUS...
- Lunch held the Talent quest.
- This was our most successful heat, with a large crowd, and exceptional hosting by both myself and Georgia. We had two performances; Tiana & Zenia, and, Lilly & Michael. Good fun.
- We then had two Impromptu performances. Nathan is Adorable.
- After Nathan the whole hall was chanting Dillon's name for him to perform. He finally gave in and made his way to the stage.
- He got up and delivered a joke
"Why did the plane crash?...
"Because the Pilot was a loaf of Bread"
- It was a lot funnier the first time he told me...
- After we concluded the Talent Heat, chilled in the hall for a little before heading to Home Ec.
- We were in the computers which was good.
- I got a bit distracted though when the Music class joined us, i.e. Ant man, Georgia and Dillon.
- It started raining in Home Ec
- After Home Ec, Whilst I waited for tiana to conclude her fraternisationing with Ryan, I was talking to Joel and Dillon.
- Then Tiana and I left them and went to a meeting.
- We had a Common Thread meeting with representatives from the GLC Primary schools, and of course lots or teachers from our school.
- Then Mum picked us up at about 5.
- I came home, after dropping tiana off, and ate watermelon and mango.
- I'm now in my room, on my laptop, listening to lucky and for the past half hour have been writing this list. I'm also logged into facebook and msn and skype.


Wow, that was in-depth, time consuming, but also fun??

I'll add more later.


ADDITIONS:

- went downstairs.
- helped set the table etc.
- Ate tacos.... well had more of a burrito
- Had a family discussion about Triple J segments
- Helped pack up
- came back on laptop
- Found this song!!!! which made my day!!
http://www.triplejunearthed.com/artists/view.aspx?artistid=40047
- Just been chilling

MORE TO COME

MORE ADDITIONS:

- Went downstairs
- Watched Toddlers and tiaras with mum
- Then watched Beauty and the Geek
- Now I'm back upstairs and soon to sleep.

NO MORE TO COME

Day 11.

Put your iPod on shuffle and write ten songs that pop up.

I'm scared that this may get embarrassing. :S

1 - Is She Really Going Out With Him? - Joe Jackson
2 - Kiss me - New Found Glory (Lahve this song so much)
3 - A Party Song - All Time Low
4 - Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine
5 - Ass Like That - Eminem
6 - Better In Time - Leona Lewis
7 - Shes Got Me Dancing - Tommy Sparks
8 - Church - T-Pain
9 - I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy
10 - Young Folks - Peter, Bjorn & John


Well that wasn't tooo bad. I'm somewhat happy with what my iTunes had to offer... I'm really tempted however to go to 20, this is enjoyable.... I'LL DO IT!

11 - Stranger In The Sky - Jason Mraz
12 - Rompe - Daddy Yankee
13 - Matter Of Time - Andrew Redford
14 - Be Mine - The Kooks
15 - Do It Well - Jennifer Lopez
16 - Your Star - The All American Rejects
17 - Gotta Get Through This (Acoustic) - Daniel Bedingfield
18 - Don't Forget - Demi Lovato
19 - Please Forgive Me - David Grey
20 - Keep It Together - Guster

That Was successful-ish also.... Not as much as top 10, but you know, it's varied

Day 10.

Discuss your first Love and first Kiss

hokay, so...
First kiss: - year 6, at school... nothing special.

Though I have not yet had the privilege of experiencing love yet. And the way I see it is I'll never really know if I have experienced the most extreme level of emotion within "love". Because like, whenever I have feeling towards someone, they seem to be more than the last time, so If these feelings just keep building and building I will never really know when I'm in love. I'd like to think that one day in the near future I may be in love. But at the rate I'm going, probably doubtful to happen whilst I know any of you that may be reading this now.

I love the whole idea of love, and I love the feeling I get when I like someone. I love to think about how it might feel to be in love. I love seeing my friends in love. I just love love.

Zacharia Bunkenshield

This evening has once again reminded me of how ahmazing Xanthe Peters is. -- and Also Hekla Egilsdóttir.

They both never cease to amaze me, and I'm so lucky I have people like them to look up to and aspire to be like. I thrive on their creativity, and I have missed having people with their artistic flair around me. They are outrageous and are never afraid to push the boundaries, and achieve the unachievable.

They are gods, and they are my Idols.
I'm am going to embrace the crap out of them before they leave me in 4 weeks :(

rad. rad. rad. rad.

Monday....

I have had a reasonably exceptional, cultural filled, Monday. Which makes me really Happy.

I spent drama with my dear Hekla - I rove rer.

Tonight it the cultural showcase - what I wait all year for. Me and Hekla will be Ushers together... hopefully.

It should be good.

Also, in the mail this afternoon I had a lovely surprise waiting for me. I am the proud winner of an academic award. This makes me extremely happy, I have worked so hard all year for this. It was my goal for this year - to win a subject award. I'm just so glad all the work has paid off... Though I'm not sure what it's for yet. I hope its FTV or something along those lines.

Today I didn't do much "school-ish" stuff. Like I went to all my classes, but for some reason they were all a little off... Maths started 20 minutes late, FTV is always brilliant, HPE was in H block and took a while to get sorted, and in Drama we were watching performances for tonight. At 1st Break I was editing my exceptional Facebook Documentary, the 2nd break I was selling sausages... I haven't really had a time to chill yet - My mind has been running all day, But I'm not tired, it has given me an amazing adrenalin rush.

Also today, me and Xanthe discussed our plan to which places and for me to deliver her speech about her art work.... this will not go ahead, although I commend her on her intelligence to see my speech potential... I love this individual.

Also... I love Hekla, just cause :)

Day 9.

How you hope your future will be like.



There is only one thing I want in my future. And that is happiness.
Because the way I see it is, i could have everything in the world, but if I'm not happy - it's not worth it.

There are things that I know will make me happy, so I guess they are things I wish for.
A Successful Job, Beautiful House, Loving Husband, Heavenly Children... the list goes on.

These things - I assume - Will make me happy. So I'm beginning to set myself up for these things now through my education. I'm thinking about things I enjoy and am good at, because I don't want to be stuck in a job that I don't love.


Well that's kinda all I have to say. I want Happiness...

Day 8.

A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.


The last time i felt the most satisfied was a little over a month ago.
I wrote a blog about it.
It was when everything just seemed to be perfect, everything was going according to plan, and more.

Everything just seemed to slip into place, and i couldn't imagine a better emotion. The the Holidays came and things started to change. Those feeling now feel so distant. I can't even remember what it felt like to just be that happy.
Everything was perfect.


But things are better now than the time between then and now..... (that sentence didn't really make much sense) I'm basically not feeling as bad about life as I was.
I'm still a grumpy moody teenager. But I'm a little happier.

I miss that time. When I was just completely and utterly satisfied with my life.
I felt indestructible. This I just suddenly didn't anymore.

but recently, becoming better friends with Hekla and Xanthe has rekindled some of those emotions. I see the bigger picture once again.
I'm not going to be able to see these people everyday for much longer. I'm going to miss them. Like I miss Des.

I understand that they may not be dying, I will still see them, but it won't be the same. Nothing will ever be the same again.

my hair....

my hair is currently half straightened,
and I'm not sure whether i can be bothered to do the rest of it

Day 7.

Zodiac Sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I am a Scorpio - and this is a description I found:

Reputed to be the "most powerful" sign of the zodiac, Scorpios lead fate filled lives and have intense and dramatic personal relationships. Even as children Scorpios are often found to be wise beyond their years. Many astrologers call this the sign of the "oldest souls". Old and wise beyond the average, Scorpios often know all the answers, except sometimes; they too often have difficulty finding what they need to develop their own happiness.

Passion, desire and power go hand in hand for Scorpios. Their biggest challenge and test in life is choosing between the power of love and the love of power. Coming to grips with their extraordinary emotional depths and sensitivity isn't easy for those around them. They are different from all other zodiac signs and this difference has them walking, working and loving to a different beat. Others can often live with a Scorpio partner for years, but not really know them. Much to do with a Scorpio remains ever secret. Their eyes often blaze with feelings that words never express, and beware on the days or nights they hide their feelings behind dark glasses, there is likely to be a storm of some kind brewing. When you deal with a Scorpio you have to always deal with them on a psychic intuitive level. They often wear a mask. Too often they say "no" when they really mean "yes". They have contrary natures. Once they find true love they can be the most faithful dedicated of all partners but fall out badly with a Scorpio and you are likely to find they will never forget or forgive.

Most Scorpios are winners. The main thing they have to worry about is their attitudes, which make up their mind powers and can either make or break them. When they are negative about something or someone, or critical of themselves, they can tend to get in their own way.


I think this is quite true of me. Especially when it says "Old and wise beyond the average, Scorpios often know all the answers, except sometimes; they too often have difficulty finding what they need to develop their own happiness." I think I'm wise, and other do too. However when it comes to my own problems I can become very lost. I do everything and anything to help others, but can never help myself.


I went out half way through writing this blog, soo I'm not terribly keen to finish it now.

But I do think I'm a Scorpio. I fit pretty much everything above. And I'm okay with that :)

why oh why?

I've gone and done something stupid.
I have made new friends.
I have been acquaintances with them for a long time now. But in the past week or so I have become really close with them.
The dilemma is that they only have about 20 days left.
I'm going to miss them so much. These days, whenever I see one of these amazing people, I have this sudden feeling of Happiness. I may be having the crapest of crap days, but I just need a couple of brain teasers to perk me right up.

I don't know why bad things always happen to me.
Why did I have to go and love these people, why?

They all have their own individual amazing qualities, and I just don't want next year to come around.
I have merely 4 weeks left with these people. Until they will be gone forever.

It makes me so sad just thinking about it. I wish I had of befriended these individuals so much earlier in my schooling, so then I could have spent so much more time with them.
But unfortunately, this was not so. And now I have to endure the heart break of when they leave me when I only just got them.

XHJD ♥

Day 6.

30 interesting facts about myself.

1. I have red hair
2. I'm 1/4 Greek
3. I am the only one in my family still with red hair
4. I can't leave the house without mascara on
5. I prefer to not leave the house without my hair straightened
6. I'm a Gleek
7. I'm in year 11
8. At Balmoral
9. I'm self conscious
10. I am single
11. I'm a One Tree Hill addict
12. I can be a jealous person
13. My lucky number is 8
14. I was born on 19th November
15. I can get my learners in about 28 days
16. I'm just over half way through
17. I want to go to England or America for 4 months after I finish school
18. I want to study film
19. I'm currently wearing white stockings
20. I once had a slight cyber stalker
21. I wish I could spend more time with my friends.
22. One of my favourite shows is Friends
23. I have 4 people in my family
24. I have $210 in my bank account
25. My favourite name is Jane for a girl
26. I wish Xanthe, Hekla, Joel, Dillon and Salome would come over
27. I actually like having red hair
28. My favourite clothing colour is Navy
29. My favourite colour is Purple
30. I'm going to miss the year 12's so much :'(

fear the unfearable

stab stab stab.

I HATE time.

Day 5.

A Time when you thought about ending your own life.

I have never considered committing suicide. And I think that's because during my saddest period, I was in that state due to the loss of a friend. So, if I were to commit suicide, I could then possibly be making others feel the way I did, and I would never wish that upon someone.
Because even if you leave this world, you may be at peace. But you will always be leaving people behind.

So yeah, I have never thought about ending my own life. I dabbled with depression and I would never wish those feelings upon someone.

I feel as if I am a lot more open about how I was feeling during the time after Des. I can't bring myself to talk about it in person, but I feel more comfortable speaking with my little blog minions. I no longer constantly feel that way anymore, but every now and then I do get a wave of those emotions.

I can't imagine the extreme emotions that would lead to suicide. For someone to be that unhappy with their life, I guess suicide may be the only way out.
Whilst I was dabbling with emotions, I would sometimes think, well what If I died (no suicide, but just died) and then I would think about all the people that I would be leaving, and then it would make me so much more grateful for what I have.

I think that experiencing these types of emotions has built me as a person. It was all a good learning experience. I'm just glad it's somewhat over now...

why so anti?

So... found out some bad news tonight.

Someone I know is very anti something that i really wish they weren't
I found out they felt that way by a good friend of there's who wishes they weren't anti this thing either.


This makes me feel pretty bad, like... so close to something then... they are anti the something

this probably doesn't make much sense, i guess that's because i don't really want to go too in depth... but I just wish things were different...

I wish they were more eager then they are... but I guess I can't change that.
I should really just give up already. It obvious nothing will eventuate...

Day 4.

Views on Religion


It really depends I guess.
See I believe there is a god. I believe in the bible etc..

Where as, when some people protest at fallen soldiers' funerals' about how they deserved to die to pay the price for homosexuals and abortions - that is just completely not right.

I believe that everyone has the right to their own opinion, but there are certain lines in society that just cannot be crossed.


I used to go to church and all that jazz, however I began to drift away from it as I grew up more. I learnt a lot about life and myself.. these were a good couple of years for me.

As it stands at the moment, I am a Christian, I may not pray nightly or go to church, but I believe there is a god, and a heaven.

Science may have been able to prove that such things are not true, but I'd like to continue to think these things are



This whole blog probably doesn't really make much sense, but I guess it's because its hard to explain. But I hope you got some understanding out of it...

20/10/2010

Today is hug a ranga day.

I got many hugs.... and a certain one had been long awaited

This made me very happy and I wish EVERYDAY was hug a ranga day....

an amber spangled bowl of cream and smiles

Xanthe Peters

She is basically Jesus, I don't know how to explain her. She is just amazing.
No matter what mood I'm in, I can just look for her hair and feel so happy instantly.
She is my sunshine. My only sunshine.

She is so unique but at the same time so normal.
She is who she is
She is Xanthe Peters.

Day 3.

Views on Drugs and Alcohol.


It really depends.
Now if my mother reads this I'm going to say that I'm totally against them and hate everyone that does it.


This isn't entirely true.
They don't bother me at all. I don't do either myself, but its an individuals choice.
I'm not the type of person that will judge someone for something they do.
I much prefer to see their personality.

I have friends that Drink, I even have some friends that do drugs.
But I love them all the same. Because I don't let it be a factor for me to not like someone.
I haven't been a witness to my friends under the influence, so as long as they don't do drugs around me, I'm totally fine with it.

For me it's not a defying factor to who someone is.

Although, in saying this, I don't like addiction. When people are drug addicts and alcoholics, it's just too far. Like I don't care if people do it on the weekend or whatever to let loose and such. But if they are under the influence more than 30% of the week, something is definitely wrong, and that's what I don't approve of.

11th Year

I'm nearing the end of my eleventh year of schooling, and I can't help but look back on what a crazy year its been.
I have experienced a lot, good and bad.
But everything I have been through, has completely shaped me to who I am today.
I'm not the same person I was merely 10 months ago. I'm different now, I admit that I have changed, But I believe it's been for the better.

I have learnt a lot about myself also. Of who I am, and what I can be.
I no longer doubt myself, I'm a pretty great person, and next year I look forward to influencing others and hopefully making them feel the way that I do.

I'm looking forward to next year more than anything. To finally celebrate the long awaited 12th year.

This year has been extremely hectic, and I can't even begin to imagine what next year will be like. But I think I can manage, I'll concur the education system. I will begin my life.

I still have about 6 weeks left. They will be very hard, but I will try to go out with a bang. There is ONLY 6 weeks left, it's not a time to start slacking off, and slink into "Holiday Mode". I need to keep my priorities straight and remember what I'm working towards.

Also next year I will begin to write my book. I'm excited for this and I cannot wait to begin, I'm itching to start sooner than I intended, but then I remember the purpose for me doing this. To document every essence of my senior year. So it will never be forgotten.

Day 2.

Where you'd be in 10 Years

Well, in 10 years ill be about a month off my 26th birthday, so I would like to be somewhere permanent in regards to relationship status.

By that age I would like to be, either married, engaged, or with a long-term partner.

If I was already married, then at 26 I could even be pregnant.

But occupation wise, I would like to be working in the film industry, or completing my Post graduate diploma for secondary education.
Or I could have already experienced these things and be working as a Film Teacher.

By this age I would have liked to have traveled to England, America, France and possibly Cyprus.

I would have experienced the world, and what's out there around me, so then all that is left for me to do is settle down. Begin to live a relatively normal life.


The next 10 years will be my best ones, the years in which I will be actually living my life.
Making mistakes and learning from them. This is the time to set myself up for the rest of my life.

I have many paths I could lead down, and I would mind experiencing a bit of each.

I'm excited for what my life has to offer.

Day 1.

My Current Relationship.

Status: Single.
Explanation: I am single. However I do have an interest and there seems to be some mutual feelings. So I guess I'm single, but not looking for anyone else.
I quite like this chap, so fingers crossed all things go well :)

To Do:

In A Month - A Blog about the following Topics

day1- current relationship
day2- where you'd be in 10 years
day3- view on drugs and alcohol
day4- views on religion
day5- a time you thought about ending your own life
day6- 30 interesting facts about myself
day7- zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality
day8- a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life
day9- how you hope your future will be like
day10- discuss your first love and first kiss
day11- put your ipod on shuffle and write ten songs that pop up
day12- bullet your whole day
day13- somewhere you'd like to move or visit
day14- earliest memory
day15- your favourite blogs
day16- views on mainstream music
day17- your highs and lows of this past year
day18- beliefs
day19- disrespecting your parents
day20- how important education is
day21- favourite show
day22- changes in the past two years
day23- give pictures of 5 guys who are famous and you find attractive
day24- your favourite movie and whats it about
day25- someone who fascinates you and why
day26- what kind of person attracts you
day27- biggest problem you have had
day28- something that you miss
day29- goals for the next 30 days
day30- your highs and lows for the month.

on further investigation

I have decided that I want this tattoo :)

tattoos

I have been google imaging lately.

And I'm pretty certain I want a tattoo when I'm older.

Something nice, plain and simple.

Somewhere that it can be easily covered, but also revealed.

I wouldn't mind marking my skin forever.

If it's tasteful, I shan't regret it.

I don't mean it - just like the picture

Flight Facilities

"Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you"

Audition Piece

So today at school, there was Auditions for the Bring It On Competition.

This is my audition

http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=§ion=&q=meow#/d1kg6c0

:)

un-easy

Well you know how I said that everything was resolved in that prior issue...
Everything is fine there.... but seems that this issue has then created another slight problem.

I hope more than anything that things can be resolved. I hate this.

picture - thanks to tayla.

Life is good again!

Everything seems to be cleared up and I'm looking forward to tomorrow :)

super bad day.

Somethings have been explained.

Although I'm not sure yet whether or not to believe them.

I've dealt with a lot of disappointment in this field before.

It's nothing new.

Nothing I can't handle.

Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings...

life is annoying.

gggrrrrrr

I hate when things are stupid and gay.

When things were good, then they began to decline. then BOOM! crap!

Like seriously, what the duck! how can people honestly be so stupid.

I guess I sometimes don't see what's so wrong, because I'm blinded by other factors. So I'm just glad I have friends that can influence me to see what's right.

Then again, I'm my own person, I can make up my own mind... but maybe it's not that easy. Maybe I need something like this to happen so I will realise, and snap back to reality.
I'm just preparing myself for the worst. It's easier that way.
So prepare for a really upset, pissed off blog tomorrow (or soon - depending on how things play out)

But I honestly, really pray to god, that this stupid stupid act of incompetence was all just a misunderstanding.

YOUR SUCH AN IDIOT!

covers.

If someone were to ask me what my favourite music genre is, my answer would be Covers.

Why you ask?

Because I love them. I love it when one band does a cover of another, and the song is completely transformed. If you would like some examples refer to Punk goes Crunk and Punk goes Pop

I love how one band put their interpretation of something out there, and in many cases it can be more successful than the original. Also refer to the Glee soundtrack.

:)

jennida byrnes

- she's kind of amazing.

i like haircuts

don't we all?

R&J

Jennie likes suits

Kurt Hugo Schneider; My Dream Guy

He's the coolest. Maybe when I'm a big time film maker, and when he is, we will meet. And get married, and have very successfully creative children. :)

Check him out on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/user/kurthugoschneider?blend=1&ob=4

P.S. he also went to YALE!..... eeepppp :D

see, there are things in life i want.

And there are things in life I need

Chest Hands.

i don't think i have ever wanted something so much in my life.

I Just really want this so badly.

Felt like my speech was a bit of a failure, but I'm just praying that I can pull through

Lula ♥

So... My Cat, Lula, Is going blind and has a kidney disease.... this has made be very very sad, she is 17 years old, and has had a good run.

But I can't imagine life without her, she is always around and always has been, and for her to suddenly not be, its scary.

I love her and don't want her to die, but I know that someday soon she will.

I don't want that day to ever come :(

don't make the river a concrete jungle of infrastructure.

So on the news tonight I saw them talking about slow traffic and the need for more bridges and roads etc.

This is crazy. There are at least 5 different routes to get from A to B so why is there a need to speed the times and allow even more ways of getting to places.

I probably don't really understand being merely 16 years of age. But as far as I'm concerned the traffic is just fine, i may not ever be caught in peek hour city traffic, but like... I don't know...

People should just suck it up. If they have a problem with being caught in traffic, maybe ride a bike, or walk... or take a different route - after all there are many to choose from.

And the Brisbane river is already covered in bridges for ever purpose - there's bus bridges, a train bridges, pedestrian bridges, multi-purpose bridges, toll-free bridges, toll bridges.. there are 15 bridges that cross the river. it's kind of crazy I think. when driving through the city, about ever half kilometer there is another bridge, every corner you turn, another is rearing its ugly head. Not to mention a $2.2 billion tunnel UNDER the river which is never used.

Yes understandable they are probably necessary I just think it makes Brisbane look more and more concrete, there is no nature left in our society. There are plans for about another 5 bridges in the near future, and probably plenty of road work.

I don't know. It would be a real pain without them... but there are many ways to get home and such. Just... people need to chill, and I don't know....

Just a random vent, I don't really want things to change so this was most likely pointless... I guess I kind of just miss the shiny blue water and the green environment.

sometimes...

...sometimes i wish i had a beard...