Day 5.

A Time when you thought about ending your own life.

I have never considered committing suicide. And I think that's because during my saddest period, I was in that state due to the loss of a friend. So, if I were to commit suicide, I could then possibly be making others feel the way I did, and I would never wish that upon someone.
Because even if you leave this world, you may be at peace. But you will always be leaving people behind.

So yeah, I have never thought about ending my own life. I dabbled with depression and I would never wish those feelings upon someone.

I feel as if I am a lot more open about how I was feeling during the time after Des. I can't bring myself to talk about it in person, but I feel more comfortable speaking with my little blog minions. I no longer constantly feel that way anymore, but every now and then I do get a wave of those emotions.

I can't imagine the extreme emotions that would lead to suicide. For someone to be that unhappy with their life, I guess suicide may be the only way out.
Whilst I was dabbling with emotions, I would sometimes think, well what If I died (no suicide, but just died) and then I would think about all the people that I would be leaving, and then it would make me so much more grateful for what I have.

I think that experiencing these types of emotions has built me as a person. It was all a good learning experience. I'm just glad it's somewhat over now...