67 days ago.

On Friday, I went into your room. You still weren't there.

Though I felt you, for that moment that I stood in your doorway, look at your room, blocked out everyone in there. I felt you.

It was too weird, I don't think ill go back soon, But I will one day.

I still wear those bracelets you got me, on my right ankle.

The Red Frogs one you got from schoolies especially for me.

And the one you got from Thailand for me.

I remember when you gave me the Thailand one, me and Tiana were sitting in your room, at your desk, eating lunch with you. You told us about the monkey that came into your room and stole the fruit like a ninja. Then we started talking about how Steven dates student and wouldn't be able to work. That was the first time you found out.

You first mentioned the red frogs one in Melbourne, you said you got it for me and I'd have to remind you when we got back to school, of course I forgot, but on the first day, you gave it to me.

You knew I loved their organisation ever since my first AGMF. You remembered.

You remembered alot.

You knew most things about me.

It wasn't that I told you things so many times that the information was forced into your brain.

You wanted to learn things about me.

About all of us.

I'm sure Johno is a great guy and stuff, but he's not you. He never will be, No-one will ever fill your place.

It is just too hard right now to talk to him, I feel bad though, I should be all nice and welcoming.

But it's so hard, because what if he is like you. What if he wants to learn things about me. I can't deal with that possibility.

It's true what they say, You don't know what you got till it's gone.

I had no idea what I had in you, I'm still not sure if i realise the immense impact you made on me.

But what I do know now is that your gone. You've been gone for 67 days now, am I'm starting to think your not coming back.

Rest In Peace Des...